There is a light.

Try always to remember.

Taking a Break

Dear friend, I promise you I will improve. I will no longer ruminate, as I always used to do, on the petty troubles which Fate puts in my way. I will enjoy the present and let bygones be bygones. You are certainly right, best of friends, that there would be far less suffering in the world if human beings--God knows why they are made like this--did not use their imaginations so busily in recalling the memories of past misfortunes, instead of trying to bear an indifferent present.

sleep-walking

the square root of nothing

Merry Christmas.

Today consists of:
Red Wine and Bergman.
Stationery and Chanel.

Hope you read too much into this.

Sending you a letter.

My heart is full of gin and tonic (peel)

Sometimes I find old things that I used to think about a lot that are still very much applicable to my life/ state of consciousness/ etc.. This list is very much so.

1. scribbled secret notebooks, and wild typewritten pages, for yr own joy
2. submissive to everything, open, listening
3. try never get drunk outside yr own house
4. be in love with yr life
5. something that you feel will find its own form
6. be crazy dumbsaint of the mind
7. blow as deep as you want to blow (jazz reference boys and grrrlz)
8. write what you want bottomless from the bottom of the mind
9. the unspeakable visions of the individual
10. no time for poetry but exactly what is
11. visionary tics shivering in the chest
12. in tranced fixation dreaming upon object before you
13. remove literary, grammatical and syntactical inhibition
14. like Proust be an old tea head of time
15. telling the true story of the world interior monolog
16. the jewel center of interest is the eye within the eye
17. write in recollection and amazement for yourself
18. work from Pithy middle eye out, swimming in language sea
19. accept loss forever
20. believe in the holy contour of life
21. struggle to sketch the flow that already exists intact in mind
22. don't think of words when you stop but to see picture better
23. keep track of everyday the date emblazoned in yr morning
24. no fear or shame in the dignity of yr experience, language and knowledge
25. write for the world to read and see yr exact pictures of it
26. bookmovie is the movie in words, the visual american form
27. in praise of Character in the Bleak in Human Loneliness
28. composing wild, undisciplined, pure, coming in form under, crazier the better

- kerouac

also, thx r.d. laing (again)

Love and violence, properly speaking, are polar opposites. Love lets the other be, but with affection and concern. Violence attempts to constrain the other's freedom, to force him to act in the way we desire, but with ultimate lack of concern, with indifference to the other's own existence or destiny.

We are effectively destroying ourselves by violence masquerading as love.